Prayer as Submission

Praying is something I naturally resist.

Even though it comes easier when I'm under the pressure of the moment...

• like when the expense account is greater than the income account or
• when my kid runs out into the street with a car coming down the road, or
• when I reach the very end of my strength;

...it doesn't come easy when things are spinning along great. Why? I guess when my need isn't as evident my desire to pray isn't either.

I don't like it that I resist praying. You'd think after SO many times of praying and seeing God work, feeling His touch or hearing His voice, I'd remember. I do know more now than I did 20 years ago and I "just do it" more and more, because I know how great it is. But I still resist it.

I know it is simply about pride. I like not needing help. But I'm learning more and more how to submit to God and start with praying rather than simply stumbling onto it as a last resort. When I was 17 years old and doubting God's existence, it was the words of 1 Peter 5:6 that were a turning point for me...

"Humble yourselves... under God's mighty hand

that He may lift you up in due time.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."

Come to think of it... these words are a turning point for me today.
Hope they will be for you too!
VAN